You’re a Terrible Writer- And Other Things I Tell Myself Late At Night

“You suck at writing.”

“You’ll never get published.”

“I hope you like folding t-shirts forever, because you’re never going to make it.”

Over the past year, I have been trying to write a book, and even though I’m halfway done with the first manuscript. I have this annoying voice in the back of my head that keeps telling me, that I’m not good enough, and that I should give up.

This voice can get very loud and obnoxious at night, especially when I’m trying to write, and I could say that I ignore it, but sometimes I can’t.  It can get very discouraging, almost to the point where I want to give up. I work, I go to school, then come home, write for a few hours, and go to sleep. Maybe I’m so discouraged, because it’s been a year and the first manuscript still isn’t done.

There are so many nights when I just lay in bed, and wonder if I’m ever going to finish this book. Or if I will ever be published. I just feel like, I’m chasing the wrong dream.

But I know deep down inside that I’m not, and if I just push past that stupid little voice in my head that I can, I will, be a successful published author one day. When I close my eyes I can see it. I walk into Barnes and Noble, and there it is, my book, sitting on the new releases table. Then I’ll know all my hard work paid. I just have to be patient, and who knows in the next year or two I could be a New York Times Bestseller.

I know this wasn’t a review, but it’s something that’s been on my mind a lot lately. I might make this into a series to chronicle my journey to getting published. If any of you have any tips on the writing process, and how to get through it, feel free to comment below. You can also always e-mail me at jayrreads@gmail.com9

Laure Eve, The Graces Review

Author: Laure Eve

Title: The Graces

Synopsis: Everyone said the Graces were witches.

They moved through the corridors like sleek fish, ripples in their wake. Stares followed their backs and their hair.

They had friends, but they were just distractions. They were waiting for someone different.

All I had to do was show them that person was me.

Like everyone else in her town, River is obsessed with the Graces, attracted by their glamour and apparent ability to weave magic. But are they really what they seem? And are they more dangerous than they let on? (Source: GoodReads)

Disclaimer: These are my opinions about this book, and I mean no harm to the author or the fans of this book.

I was originally drawn into this book, because at my local Barnes & Noble’s there was a recommendation card that said that it was a mix between Mean Girls and The Craft. I’m hear to tell you that was a blatant lie.

I would consider The Graces to be more of a Twilight/ Single White Female fanfiction. That idea sounds way cooler than the actual plot of this book.

But The Graces was just so…corny. I found myself rolling my eyes all the way through.

Not only was it corny but it was confusing. Like is her dad dead or is he missing? Are they witches or is she witch? And why the hell is she single white femaling this  family? I need answers!

It took me awhile to connect with the main character, River, and when I did I came to the conclusion that I didn’t like her. She was only friends with The Graces based off of looks alone. She said they were best friends, but if they were really best friends she would have been comfortable enough to open up to them. She wanted to know everything about the Grace family yet she didn’t offer up information about herself one time. And she was only friends with Summer (the youngest Grace) just to get to her brother.

But what really disturbed me about River is that she kept saying how much she wanted to be a Grace. At one point she even said that she was a Grace. No, sweetie. You’re a stalker.

Another thing that turned me off about The Graces, was how long it took to get to the climax. At some points I would think I was there and then I wouldn’t be and then I would think I was there again and I still wouldn’t be it. And then it finally did happen, and it fell flat. With how many hints and cliffhangers there were leading up to that point I expected it to be bigger, and it just wasn’t.

I wanted to like The Graces I really did. But it just wasn’t for me. I read on GoodReads that there is a second one and a part of me wants to read it just to see if it’s any better. Don’t know if I will or not, but if I do I will definitely post a review.

Veronica Roth, Carve The Mark Review

 

Author: Veronica Roth

Title: Carve The Mark

Genre: YA Fantasy

Publisher: Katherine Tegen Books (HarperCollins)

Synopsis:
Cyra is the sister of the brutal tyrant who rules the Shotet people. Cyra’s currentgift gives her pain and power — something her brother exploits, using her to torture his enemies. But Cyra is much more than just a blade in her brother’s hand: she is resilient, quick on her feet, and smarter than he knows.

Akos is the son of a farmer and an oracle from the frozen nation-planet of Thuvhe. Protected by his unusual currentgift, Akos is generous in spirit, and his loyalty to his family is limitless. Once Akos and his brother are captured by enemy Shotet soldiers, Akos is desperate to get this brother out alive — no matter what the cost.
The Akos is thrust into Cyra’s world, and the enmity between their countries and families seems insurmountable. Will they help each other to survive, or will they destroy one another?
Carve the Mark is Veronica Roth’s stunning portrayal of the power of friendship — and love — in a galaxy filled with unexpected gifts. (Source: GoodReads)

Before I start this review I just want to say that I like Veronica Roth and I loved the Divergent series (still haven’t seen any of the movies), but I cannot and will not base my opinions of Carve The Mark on the simple fact that it was written by Veronica Roth.

Now that I have gotten that out of the way, when I first started Carve The Mark; I did not like it. It didn’t grab me, I thought it was slow, and something about it didn’t flow right to me. I also had a problem with the self-harm aspect.

When the Shotet, the people from the enemy lands, kill someone they mark their kills by cutting themselves, hence the title Carve the Mark. Even though I have never struggled with self-harm myself, I know that there are plenty of people that have and I would never want anyone to be triggered by that.

But once I got passed the beginning, thankfully they don’t have to “carve the mark” too many times, I did begin to like the book. Specifically, the character interaction. The story alternates perspectives between Cyra and Akos, and the scenes between Cyra and Akos were my absolute favorites. I have to admit I am a sucker for romance, I can’t help it’s just so sweet.

I also liked all of the action in it, it was enough but not too much. There were twist and turns, and romance, and space. I mean what more could you want, romance and space, I’m hooked.

There were a lot of unanswered questions, so I’m thinking there’s going to be a second book. I hope there’s going to be a second book, because after that ending I need answers. But I pray that it comes to a natural end, and it doesn’t get dragged out into a long series. Because that would be extremely disappointing.

For anyone that starts reading this and wants to stop I suggest pushing through because it does get better. I will be checking out any additions to this series that Veronica Roth may come out with.

After this I’m going to be taking a little break from fantasy novels and will be diving into nonfiction for my next review with Alida Nugent’s, You Don’t Have to Like Me. I’m excited to begin reading this, and I can’t wait to get back to you guys with a review.